龔雪“回家”

旅居美國(guó)近20年的著名電影演員龔雪一身素雅淡裝，在歡送她回國(guó)定居的宴會(huì)上輕口輕語：“我回家了。”

9月中旬，正是美國(guó)紐英格倫華麗的金秋，大地蔓延著簇簇紅葉，向人們展示了絢麗多姿的秋景。全美中國(guó)作家聯(lián)誼會(huì)、《紐約商務(wù)》雜志、東南康州華人協(xié)會(huì)和輝瑞藥業(yè)公司的華人科學(xué)家們，歡聚在康州海默頓的東王朝飯店，設(shè)宴歡送龔雪回國(guó)定居。龔雪的好友、全美中國(guó)作家聯(lián)誼會(huì)秘書長(zhǎng)王楓，早在上周就開始布置宴會(huì)、確定嘉賓和菜單，她以一種隆重的方式來歡送自己親密的朋友“回家”。或許“回家”兩字對(duì)旅居海外的游子來說更有一番含意，重有一字千鈞，以至于龔雪“我回家了”剛脫口而出，華海藥業(yè)(美國(guó))公司副總裁王海的夫人曹紅月女士不禁淚涌。

曾創(chuàng)造中國(guó)電影的神話

20世紀(jì)80年代初期，龔雪創(chuàng)造了中國(guó)電影的神話。她在《石榴花》《快樂的單身漢》《大橋下面》等一系列電影中所塑造的完美高潔的銀幕形象，成為那個(gè)時(shí)代電影觀眾的精神偶像，甚至是“夢(mèng)中情人”。時(shí)隔20年后的今天，仍不乏影迷向她表達(dá)崇敬之情，最近龔雪還收到一位旅美影迷寫給她的抒情詩。當(dāng)王楓在宴會(huì)上朗讀這首詩時(shí)，舉座感慨不已。是的，龔雪成了清純、善良、溫柔、高潔的“符號(hào)”，畫在了幾代電影觀眾的心中，特別在物欲橫流的今天，龔雪“符號(hào)”更顯示出強(qiáng)大的人格魅力。

l984年，龔雪以《大橋下面》中的秦楠形象，獲得中國(guó)電影“百花獎(jiǎng)”和“金雞獎(jiǎng)”“最佳女演員”，觀眾選票和專家評(píng)選意見空前統(tǒng)一。1986年，正當(dāng)她在電影表演藝術(shù)上達(dá)到巔峰狀態(tài)之時(shí)，卻出人意料地前往美國(guó)留學(xué)，這令廣大電影觀眾震驚和錯(cuò)愕，令電影界專家和廣大影迷惋惜。后來關(guān)于美女龔雪與才子張迅的神奇愛情報(bào)道刊登在大小報(bào)刊上時(shí)，不少年輕的男性影迷竟然“痛心疾首”，以至于對(duì)才子張迅“恨之入骨”。

平靜低調(diào)的異國(guó)生活

20年了，龔雪在美國(guó)生活情況如何？影迷仍然關(guān)注著她。然而龔雪的生活平和、寧靜而低調(diào)，不要說她沒有任何緋聞，就連片言只語信息都沒有，沉寂得干干凈凈。

這期間龔雪隨先生張迅先在美國(guó)南部德州生活了兩年，張迅取得博士學(xué)位后，全家搬到紐約，兩年后再搬到新澤西州，最后全家搬到了康州定居至今。張迅在東南康州的輝瑞藥業(yè)公司擔(dān)任高級(jí)職員，收入穩(wěn)定，他們?cè)陂L(zhǎng)島海峽北岸買了一幢房子，龔雪在相夫教女之余，把這幢白色房屋和周圍的草地庭院裝飾得清雅不失艷麗，溫馨又顯高貴，布局和諧，搭配協(xié)調(diào)，一窗一墻都有講究，成了鮮花的世界，藝術(shù)的殿堂，更是龔雪的“白宮”。我在主編《東方》雜志時(shí)，曾經(jīng)和龔雪張迅夫婦談好開設(shè)一個(gè)“龔雪情調(diào)”欄目，張迅是一位具有專業(yè)水平的業(yè)余攝影家，由他拍攝照片發(fā)給《東方》。后因故沒有辦成，現(xiàn)在卻將這段約稿續(xù)上了。最近我創(chuàng)辦的《紐約商務(wù)》雜志將開設(shè)“龔雪時(shí)尚”欄目，向讀者們展示龔雪的情調(diào)和品位，展示龔雪的修養(yǎng)和精神。

龔雪相夫教女，是一位典型的賢妻良母，是“中國(guó)的山口百惠”。20年來龔雪享有了一個(gè)女人極其美滿的家庭生活，而如今先生張迅回國(guó)，擔(dān)任長(zhǎng)江實(shí)業(yè)集團(tuán)和記黃浦醫(yī)藥副總裁，愛女張遐也考上了美國(guó)著名的藝術(shù)大學(xué)——羅德島藝術(shù)大學(xué)。正在這個(gè)家庭美滿生活的巔峰時(shí)刻，她卻賣掉了房子、汽車，就像20年前一樣，再一次作了漂亮的“騰挪”：“我回家了”。無怪一位熟悉龔雪的中國(guó)老太太說：“龔雪總給人留下最美好的印象，20年前她把最美好的銀幕形象留給了觀眾，而今天她又把最美好的生活形象留給了朋友”。“回家了”，這就是龔雪的瀟灑。無論作為一位表演藝術(shù)家還是作為一個(gè)女人，龔雪都擁有很高的幸福指數(shù)。

龔雪在康州住了整整十年，對(duì)康州的感情最深，并結(jié)交了一批親密的女性朋友。這天，這批朋友們驅(qū)車一個(gè)多小時(shí)，從輝瑞公司趕來參加宴會(huì)，并在宴會(huì)上紛紛對(duì)龔雪“歌功頌德”：輝瑞公司高級(jí)研究員杜萍說：“龔雪人好，不僅是個(gè)好演員，更是個(gè)好女人。”東南康州華人協(xié)會(huì)秘書長(zhǎng)、中文學(xué)校副校長(zhǎng)孫建敏說：“龔雪的女兒是我的學(xué)生，龔雪對(duì)女兒學(xué)中文要求很嚴(yán)，經(jīng)常到學(xué)校來和我交換意見，非常細(xì)心。”；華海藥業(yè)(美國(guó))公司副總裁王海夫婦說：“龔雪演品和人品都好，生活上很有情趣，到我們家一趟，感覺到客廳墻上缺少點(diǎn)什么，她就自己手工做了一把扇子，掛在我們客廳的墻上，頓時(shí)就增添了許多趣味。”輝瑞公司電腦工程師童紅明說：“我家里家具擺了三年都沒有擺清楚，看了總覺得別扭。龔雪來我家一擺，就感到非常的和諧，很舒服。”有人又披露，龔雪燒的小菜好吃得“一塌糊涂”，她的絕手菜有：麻婆豆腐、紅燒獅子頭、干煸四季豆、炸醬面，粉絲煲等。不過說到粉絲煲，龔雪糾正說，那是張迅的家傳菜。但大家笑著說，經(jīng)過她的“發(fā)揚(yáng)光大”，“版權(quán)”已經(jīng)屬于她的了；又有人披露龔雪養(yǎng)了一條狗叫麥克，現(xiàn)在她回國(guó)了，要把麥克送給人家。舍不得是很正常的事，但龔雪竟然面試了五戶人家，經(jīng)過認(rèn)真考慮才確定其中的一戶，而且把麥克送去試養(yǎng)了一周，確認(rèn)麥克依然“幸福”，才正式送給人家。

龔雪靜靜地聽著，最后還是受不了朋友們的熱烈“歌頌”，笑著說：“我要顫抖了。”

我與龔雪張迅夫婦的交往，雖有年月卻不經(jīng)常，而且多在聚會(huì)和宴會(huì)上。在聚會(huì)時(shí)，龔雪經(jīng)常是輕聲細(xì)語與朋友聊天，或者靜靜坐在沙發(fā)上，非常投入地看書；張迅則在一旁自飲自品，像專業(yè)鑒定師一樣喝著葡萄酒，旁若無人地沉醉著，“酒仙”的神態(tài)相當(dāng)生動(dòng)。記得一次在黃樂群教授家舉辦的聚會(huì)上，龔雪坐在沙發(fā)上讀著我新出版的《冰凌幽默小說選》，竟一連讀完三個(gè)中篇，隨后向大家描述每個(gè)中篇的故事情節(jié)，這種閱讀記憶和專業(yè)功力讓我吃驚和敬佩。

敞開心扉說“回家”

歡笑過后，我便“公事公辦”開始采訪。我向龔雪提出了一系列讀者感興趣的問題，龔雪一一作了回答，特別對(duì)自己為什么選擇“回家”作了正面的回答：龔雪說事業(yè)和生活都有個(gè)階段性，我在追求事業(yè)的同時(shí)，非常向往有一個(gè)美滿的家庭生活。我覺得對(duì)一個(gè)女人來說，美滿的家庭生活很重要，當(dāng)我的事業(yè)達(dá)到高峰階段，我覺得我完成了事業(yè)階段的追求，于是我就選擇了家庭生活。結(jié)了婚，生了女兒，我過了19年很知足的家庭生活。現(xiàn)在我的女兒也上大學(xué)去了，我又可以開始另一個(gè)新階段的生活了，我想我自己該做一些喜歡做的事了。

龔雪為了女兒的成長(zhǎng)，在家陪伴女兒，曾經(jīng)推掉很多電影的片約。那么現(xiàn)在回到上海定居，龔雪有沒有可能重返影視圈呢？或者到電視臺(tái)主持節(jié)目等等。龔雪說，最主要看有沒有我合適的角色。沒有合適的角色我不會(huì)去演出，我可能也不太適合去當(dāng)主持人，我以后會(huì)做一些自己喜歡的事。現(xiàn)在只是想回家，實(shí)際上我雖然住在美國(guó)，可我每年都回上海，對(duì)家鄉(xiāng)心里總有一種不了情。

龔雪“回家”實(shí)際上是對(duì)生活的一種選擇，是一種生活的態(tài)度。我想，一味追求事業(yè)甚至終身追求事業(yè)固然可敬，但是在追求事業(yè)的同時(shí)也享有美滿的家庭生活，應(yīng)該說是一種更具人性、更加完滿的生活。龔雪的藝術(shù)本色與生活本色高度一致，無論做明星還是做平民，她都同樣陶醉和享受。她的心態(tài)、品德、品位和修養(yǎng)，使她輝煌而不忘形，寧靜而不寂寞，理性而又知足，她是一個(gè)進(jìn)入大境界的女人。

（作者冰凌，本名姜衛(wèi)民，幽默小說家。1956年11月生于上海，1994年旅居美國(guó)。現(xiàn)任全美中國(guó)作家聯(lián)誼會(huì)會(huì)長(zhǎng)、美國(guó)《紐約商務(wù)》雜志社社長(zhǎng)、香港《華人》雜志總編輯等職。發(fā)表各類文學(xué)、新聞作品600多萬字。）

Movie Star Back Home

Gong Xue has come back to settle down in Shanghai， after living in USA for nearly 2 decades.

The young generations of film fans may not even know the name， but in the early 1980s， Gong was a star that made history on China’s silver screen. Her perfect silver-screen interpretation of her roles as ingenuous girls made her the national idol. In 1984 she was awarded the best actress title in both Golden Rooster Award and Hundred Flowers Award， the highest honor in the country’s movie industry， unanimously acknowledged by both film fans and experts.

However， at the height of her career， Gong Xue migrated to a quiet life in America in 1986. When the report that she married Zhang Xun in America broke out in the news media across the country， Zhang Xun suddenly found himself the number one enemy of many fans.

The fans have wanted to find out what kind of life Gong Xue was leading in America， but the woman kept a pretty low profile and not a word about her has ever been reported in the media in China.

During the 20 years， she and her husband first lived in Texas for about 2 years. After Zhang earned the Doctor’s degree， they lived in to New York for two years and then moved to New Jersey. Then they settled down in Connecticut where Pfizer Pharmaceuticals Limited， world’s largest pharmaceutical company， is located and her husband worked as a senior employee. They bought a house on the northern bank of Long Island Sound. For ten years when they lived in Connecticut， the house grew into a perfect garden.

Gong Xue lived quietly as a good wife to her husband and good mother to her daughter. According to herself， she had everything a woman can desire for. Now， Zhang Xun comes back to China and works as deputy general manager for Hutchison-Whampoa pharmaceuticals and their daughter is in Rhoda Island School of Design. The family sold their house and cars and moved back to Shanghai.

The ten years in Connecticut saw Gong Xue make a lot of female friends. Before they left for Shanghai， their friends threw a farewell banquet. At the party， they praised Gong as a beautiful and capable homemaker. She once helped a friend to rearrange pieces of furniture at home， which the friend had failed to set right for three years. During a visit to the home of a friend， she found a blank wall in need of some adornment. So she made a folding fan and put it there. And she was a perfect cook. Some of her best dishes are an everlasting topic of her friends.

After the party， I had a formal interview with Gong Xue. When it came to her life， she commented that when she was pursuing the acting career， she did not forget to seek a perfect family life. Life and career were two separate things for her. She said that for a woman， a perfect marriage and family were important. After she was successful as a film star， she felt she had completed the career and she wanted to pursue a perfect family life. Now with her daughter in college， she preferred to start a new phase of her life. She believed she would begin to do something she liked. To spend more time with the daughter， she declined many offers for roles in movies over years. Would it be possible for her to restart the film career or work as a TV program hostess after she settled down in Shanghai? It would depend on whether the roles were suitable. She doubted she could be fit for hosting a television program. She just wanted to be home again and do things she liked to do. In fact， she has been making her annual home visit to Shanghai every year since she got married in USA.

Gong’s comeback to Shanghai is actually an attitude toward life and her choice of the life she wants.Understanding it is admirable for someone to pursue a lifelong career and it is equally admirable for someone to pursue a happy family life， I can see her career and family life are identical. A star or not， she enjoys her life. Her attitude， virtue， grace， and quality have made her remember who she was when she was on the top of the world， and made her contented with life when she lives a quiet and intelligent life. She is a woman of her own category.

(Translated by David)