幸運筆

張祖平

“Mommy， I got something for you！” Cody ran through the door after school. His face wore a big smile. He waved something in his hand. “Its a pen， but not just like any pen. Its a lucky pen！” He handed me the pen proudly， waiting for my reaction1.

I looked at the pen in my hand. There was nothing special about it. It looked just like any other pen in my drawer. At that moment， I didnt realize how special it was or how much I would treasure it.

I had made the decision to be a writer， but I was afraid of being refused by the publishers again and again. The night before， I told my husband my fear when I thought Cody wasnt listening.“What if nobody likes my writing and I fail？” But Cody did hear what I said. Now he stood in front of me， “You dont have to be afraid now，” he said， “This pen will make your stories great and everyone will love you.”

Tears filled my eyes， even if I havent sold the first book. I had everything I could ever need. And I felt lucky already， just by having Cody in my life， especially when I heard what he did to get it. At lunch， Cody heard an older boy talking about having a lucky pen. He decided to get it for me. The boy wouldnt agree but Cody didnt give up. In the end， he traded his favorite transformer2 toy and a box of crayons3——his most important things for that pen， just to make me feel better.

I still have that pen， though its long out of ink. When a refusal4 letter arrives and I start feeling sorry， I look at it and feel how lucky I am. So I value that pen. Its Cody who I really treasure in my life.

“媽媽，我有樣東西給你！”科迪放學后跑進門，他滿臉笑容，揮動著手中的東西，“是一支鋼筆，但這不像別的筆，它是一支幸運筆。”他自豪地把鋼筆遞給我，看看我作何反應。

我看著手中的鋼筆，沒什么特別，就像我抽屜里任何一支鋼筆一樣。那時，我沒有意識到這支鋼筆有多么特殊，也沒有意識到我將多么珍惜它。

我決心要成為一個作家，但是我害怕被出版社一次又一次拒絕。前天晚上，我告訴丈夫我的害怕，那時，我以為科迪沒有在聽。“如果沒有人喜歡我寫的東西，如果我失敗了，那該怎么辦？”但是科迪聽見了我說的話。現(xiàn)在他站在我面前，“你不用再害怕。”他說，“這支筆會讓你的故事變得精彩，每個人都會喜歡你。”

我熱淚盈眶，盡管我第一本書都還沒有賣出去，我卻擁有了可以擁有的一切，我已經(jīng)感到幸運，僅僅因為在我的生命里有了科迪，尤其當我聽到他如何得到這支幸運筆。午飯的時候，科迪聽見一個比他大的男孩在談論他有一支幸運筆，科迪決定為我得到這支筆。那個大男孩開始不同意，但是科迪沒有放棄。最后，科迪用他心愛的變形金剛玩具和一盒蠟筆——他最重要的東西換來了那只鋼筆，只是為了我能感覺好點。

我現(xiàn)在留著那只鋼筆，盡管它早已沒有墨水。當我收到一封退稿信，頓覺得遺憾的時候，看一看那只鋼筆，我覺得自己很幸運，所以我珍惜那只筆。其實在我生命中，我真正珍惜的是科迪。

Notes：

1. reaction [] n. 反應

2. transformer [] n. 變壓器；（玩具）變形金剛

3. crayon [] n. 蠟筆

4. refusal [] n. 拒絕