愛如鮮花盛開

I was nine when my father first sent me flowers. I had been taking tap dancing lessons for six months， and the school was giving its yearly recital. As an excited member of the beginners' chorus line， I was aware of my lowly status.

父親第一次給我送花是在我9歲那年。當(dāng)時，我加入學(xué)校踢踏舞班才6個月，正逢學(xué)校舉辦一年一度的演出。我只能編入新學(xué)員合唱隊，卻依然興致勃勃。不過我清楚自己只是個不起眼的小角色。

So it was a surprise to have my name called out at the end of the show along with the lead dancers and to find my arms full of long-stemmed red roses. I can still feel myself standing on that stage， blushing furiously and gazing over the footlights to see my father's grin as he applauded loudly.

可演出一結(jié)束，我竟與主舞的演員一起被喊到前臺，雙手捧著一束枝繁葉茂的紅玫瑰。我至今還能感覺得到自己站在舞臺上，雙頰緋紅，越過絢麗的腳燈光線向下張望，看見的竟是父親的笑臉，他一面使勁地鼓掌，一面快活地笑著。

Those roses were the first in a series of large bouquets that accompanied all the milestones in my life. They brought a sense of embarrassment. I enjoyed them， but was flustered by the extravagance.

這束鮮花是第一束，后來，每逢我人生一個里程碑都會收到一大束鮮花?？墒盏侥切r花，我的心情總是很矛盾：既高興，又有些不自在。我喜愛鮮花，可又為這種奢侈而不安。

Not my father. He did everything in a big way. If you sent him to the bakery for a cake， he came back with three. Once， when mother told him I needed a new party dress， he brought home a dozen.

父親卻從不會覺得不安，他做什么事都大方得很。你若讓他去糕點鋪買一塊蛋糕，他肯定會買來3塊。一次，母親對他說我需要一條新舞裙，他竟買回一打。

His behavior often left us without funds for other more important things. After the dress incident， there was no money for the winter coat I really needed or the new ice skates I wanted.

他這么做常常使我們沒有錢再去添置其他更需要的東西。那次他買回一打舞裙后，就再也沒錢去買我真正急需的冬大衣和我一直向往的新溜冰鞋。

Sometimes I would be angry with him， but not for long. Inevitably he would buy me something to make up with me. The gift was so apparently an offering of love he could not verbalize that I would throw my arms around him and kiss him—an act that undoubtedly perpetuated his behavior.

有時我會為這些事跟父親賭氣，但時間都不會長。每次他必定會給我買些禮物與我和好。這禮物顯然傳遞著他不善用言辭表達(dá)的愛。這時我便會摟住父親，吻他——這親昵的行為無疑會使他再度大方。

Then came my 16th birthday. It was not a happy occasion. I was fat and had no boyfriend. And my well-meaning parents furthered my misery by giving me a party. As I entered the dining room， there on the table next to my cake was a huge bouquet of flowers， bigger than any before.

后來我16歲生日，可我并不快樂。我長得胖，那時還沒有男朋友。好心的父母為我準(zhǔn)備了個生日晚會，可這更讓我覺得難受。我走進(jìn)餐廳，看見餐桌上生日蛋糕旁邊，擺著很大一束鮮花，比以往的都要大。

I wanted to hide. Now everyone would think my father had sent flowers because I had no boyfriend to do it. Sweet 16， and I felt like crying. I probably would have， but my best friend，Phyllis， whispered， \"Hi， you're lucky to have a father like that.\"

我真想找個地縫鉆進(jìn)去，這下誰都會以為我沒有男朋友送花，只好由父親來送了。16歲該是最甜蜜的，我卻只想哭。或許當(dāng)時我的確哭了，但我最好的朋友菲利斯在我耳邊小聲說：“嘿，你有這樣的父親可真幸運?！?/p>

As the years passed， other occasions—birthdays， recitals， awards， graduations—were marked with Dad's flowers. My emotions continued to seesaw between pleasure and embarrassment.

隨著光陰流逝，許多特別的日子，像生日、演出、獲獎、畢業(yè)都會伴有父親的鮮花。我的心情也依然在高興與不自在之間搖擺不定。

When I graduated from college， though， my days of ambivalence were over. I was embarking on a new career and was engaged to be married. Dad's flowers symbolized his pride， and my triumph. They evoked only great pleasure.

可我到大學(xué)畢業(yè)時，那種矛盾的心情消失了。我開始了新的工作，也訂了婚。父親的鮮花代表了他的驕傲、我的勝利。它們帶來的只有極大的喜悅。

Now there were bright-orange mums for Thanksgiving and a huge pink poinsettia at Christmas. White lilies at Easter， and velvety red roses for birthdays. Seasonal flowers in mixed bouquets celebrated the births of my children and the move to our first house.

后來每逢感恩節(jié)我們都會收到父親的一捧黃燦燦的菊花；圣誕節(jié)會有一大束粉紅的一品紅；復(fù)活節(jié)是潔白的百合花；生日里會有天鵝絨般的紅玫瑰；孩子出世或逢喬遷之喜，父親會送來那個季節(jié)里盛開的許多種鮮花扎成的花束。

As my fortunes grew， my father's waned， but his gifts of flowers continued until he died of a heart attack a few months before his 70th birthday. Without embarrassment， I covered his coffin with the largest， reddest roses I could find.

隨著我不斷功成名就，父親卻日漸衰老，但他依然堅持給我送花，直到他70歲生日的前幾個月，因心臟病發(fā)作而瘁然逝去。我在他的棺木上鋪滿了我所能尋得的最紅最艷最大的玫瑰花，而且，沒有一絲不自在。

Often in the dozen years since， I felt an urge to go out and buy a big bouquet to fill the living room， but I never did.I knew it would not be the same.

往后的12年中，我常常有一股沖動，想去買一大束鮮花裝點起居室，可始終沒去。我知道，即便買來，花已不是從前的花了。

Then one birthday， the doorbell rang. I was feeling blue because I was alone. My husband was playing golf， and my two daughters were away. My 13-year-old son， Matt， had run out earlier with a \"see you later，\" never mentioning my birthday. So I was surprised to see his large frame at the door. \"Forgot my key，\" he said， shrugging. \"Forgot your birthday too. Well， I hope you like flowers， Mum.\" He pulled a bunch of daisies from behind his back.

后來有一天我生日，我聽見門鈴響了。那天，我本來很沮喪，因為只有我一個人待在家中。丈夫打高爾夫球去了，兩個女兒出遠(yuǎn)門了，13歲的兒子馬特也走得格外早，只道了聲“再見”，只字未提我的生日。所以我開門看見馬特胖胖的身體站在門邊，有幾分驚訝，他聳聳肩，說道：“忘帶鑰匙了，也忘了今天是你生日，嗯，我希望你喜歡鮮花，媽媽?！闭f著，他從背后抽出一束雛菊。

\"Oh， Matt，\" I cried， hugging him hard. \"I love flowers!\"

“哦，馬特，”我大叫一聲，緊緊摟住他，“我愛鮮花。”

能說會用

grin n. 露齒笑vt. 露齒而笑vi. 露齒而笑

例如：She threw a grin at him.

她朝他露齒一笑。

Her grin changed to scowl.

她的笑容變成愁容。

in a big way 大肆地， 徹底地， 大肆炫耀地

例如：They celebrated her birthday in a big way.

他們隆重地為她慶祝生日。

◆編輯：丁俊玲