當愛情悸動我的時候

曹爾寅

PREFACE 前言

在我看來，女人是敏感而羸弱的動物，生行于火中，泯滅于水里。墨西哥國寶級女畫家弗里達便是這樣一個人群中特殊的存在，于亂世塵囂間風情地擺弄著，撩撥著；在病痛與才華間孤獨地穿行著，逡巡著。她將愛與痛編織成一張無形的藝術(shù)之網(wǎng)，羈絆了他人，也纏住了自己。上帝總是公平的，賜予了她花樣的容貌與驚世的才華，卻讓病痛與愛恨情仇尾隨其終身。她的作品，吊詭而神秘。她說自己不過是信筆一畫，反正我是不信的，因為只有在命運起伏間，美感才得以呈現(xiàn)。疏離與背叛、病痛與死亡、絕望與制衡是弗里達畫作的主題， 在她一生所創(chuàng)的200幅作品中，近三分之二都是在記錄自己人生苦痛的自畫像，意蘊雋永。

Women are the sensitive ones who are entangled in the contradictions between calmness and radicalness. Frida Kahlo， the most talented female artist in Mexico， is among those who lived in all kinds of extremities. She weaved her artistic net by integrating her tortured private life and the stunning talents. Along with dozens of drawings and studies， Kahlo created almost 200 pieces of works with slyness and mystery. Two-thirds of her paintings are self-portraits which often incorporate symbolic portrayals of physical and psychological wounds. She insisted， "I never painted dreams. I painted my own reality."

Who Is Frida Kahlo？

弗里達其人

弗里達，墨西哥知名畫家，生于1907年，卒于1954年。詭譎的經(jīng)歷與遭遇追隨其一生，故此牽絆出的愛恨情仇衍生成為其創(chuàng)作的繆斯。其中，最為人們津津樂道的便是弗里達筆下那象征性十足的自畫像。此外，作為土生土長的墨西哥姑娘，弗里達對自己的故鄉(xiāng)有著獨特的情結(jié)，她所居住的家被稱為“藍房子”，這也同樣是她合目告別人世的地方。她將本國的傳統(tǒng)文化投射于畫板上，并從獨特的女性主義視角出發(fā)，展現(xiàn)了一個光怪陸離的精神世界。

Frida Kahlo de Rivera （July 6， 1907 – July 13， 1954） was the most well-known Mexican female painter whose life was full of extraordinary experiences. She worked along with her complicated inner world where there came passion and frustration， love and hatred， anger and contradictions and those in turn became high motivations for her nonstop creation and among which the self-portrait could most illustrate her life attitude. Kahlo's life began and ended in Mexico City where she spent most of her time and that was the reason why her work has been celebrated in Mexico as emblematic of national and indigenous tradition， and by feminists for its uncompromising depiction of the female experience and form.

HER WORKS 她的作品

弗里達熱愛墨西哥的一切，因此她將民間藝術(shù)與本國傳統(tǒng)深嵌于自己的作品中。在她的作品中，超現(xiàn)實主義精神也可見一斑，超現(xiàn)實主義代表人物布勒東就曾將弗里達的畫作比作“纏繞在炸彈周圍的絲帶”。

Mexican culture and Amerindian cultural tradition are embedded in her works， which has been characterized as naive art or folk art. Her work has also been described as surrealist， and in 1938 Andre Breton， principal initiator of the surrealist movement， described Kahlo's art as a "ribbon around a bomb".

談及弗里達的創(chuàng)作生涯，兜兜轉(zhuǎn)轉(zhuǎn)總避不開一個名字—迭戈·里韋拉。這位牽絆了弗里達一生的丈夫、伴侶和同志，成為了她所有愛與恨的源泉，也正是因為這位浪蕩不羈的藝術(shù)導師，成就了弗里達最負盛名的創(chuàng)作。作者以為， 與常人所理解的才女不盡相同，弗里達不夠瀟灑。

就這一點，在跨文化的語境看來，與晚清才女柳如是的“我見青山多嫵媚，料青山，見我應如是”有些惺惺相惜了。倘若人家“見不是”，后果便是對于不可得的憤恨、糾結(jié)并逐漸走向滅亡。她們都有驚世的容顏、經(jīng)歷少小成名；而且都是因為細膩的情感，使她們在愛情中輾轉(zhuǎn)反側(cè)、顛沛流離。面對丈夫的一再背叛，弗里達無處宣泄，訴諸于煙、酒、放亂的N角戀，但最終，還是展現(xiàn)在了畫板上。

During her lifetime， Frida created almost 200 paintings， drawings and sketches related to her experiences in life， physical and emotional pain and her turbulent relationship with Diego （a prominent Mexican painter and the husband of Kahlo）. The streetcar accident left her crippled physically and her husband crippled her emotionally. These issues are reflected in her works， more than half of which are self-portraits and when asked for the reasons， Kahlo suggested， "I paint myself because I am so often alone and because I am the subject I know best."

CONCLUSION 結(jié)語

尼采說：“藝術(shù)是生命的興奮劑。”之于弗里達，痛，是她生命的興奮劑，而這一針碰巧注射進她的畫筆里。有人說，真正藝術(shù)性的死亡本質(zhì)上有兩種：要么死于水中，要么死于火里。顯然，弗里達屬于后者。她是涅槃的鳳凰，浴火的玫瑰。上帝的玩忽職守流放了她，也造就了她。病痛與失愛讓她恨慘了這人間，因而死前她說：“我希望死亡是愉悅的，并且我不愿再來。”走吧，放下你心愛的畫筆和愛人們痛快地走吧，不要帶走一片云彩。

Kahlo proved Nietzsches philosophy， “Art is the great stimulant of life”. By depicting her own life， the work is remembered for its “pain and passion” and its intensive， vibrant colors. The above is Kahlo， the person who lived between heaven and Hell. May god bless this talented painter and let her peacefully rest in her dreaming world where there is no more pain and misery.

專業(yè)詞匯VOCABULARY

symbolic adj. 象征的

portrayal n.畫像、肖像

motivation n. 激勵

nonstop creation 不間斷的創(chuàng)作

self-portrait n.自畫像

stimulus n. 刺激

be celebrated 被贊頌

emblematic adj. 象征性的，典型的

indigenous adj. 本土的

feminist n. 女權(quán)主義者

uncompromising adj. 不妥協(xié)的

depiction n. 描述，描畫

depict v.描述，描畫

be embedded in 被蘊含在...中

be characterized as 被定義成為....

folk art 民間藝術(shù)

initiator n. 創(chuàng)始者

surrealist movement 超現(xiàn)實主義運動

sketch v. 草擬，速寫

turbulent adj.動蕩的

vibrant colors 鮮明的色彩