Disguise——摘下面具

美國社會學家歐文·戈夫曼曾在他撰寫的研究報告中，試圖用“擬劇論”來揭示日常生活中人們的行為呈現。在他看來，人們的一言一行都帶有偽裝的成分，生活就如同一個大劇場，每個人都在戴著面具演出：你身邊的“開心果”在獨處時可能就像一個“苦瓜”；在旁人眼里忙碌而充實的成功人士也許內心正感到孤獨空虛；而站在鏡子前面的你或許都快要認不出鏡中那個強顏歡笑的自己。

“你是否想過要遠走高飛，忘掉煩惱，并卸下所有偽裝？”Lene Marlin在歌中唱道。被歌迷們稱作“小精靈”的Lene Marlin來自可以看到午夜太陽和北極光的美麗國度——挪威。1980年出生的她在18歲時就以單曲“Unforgivable Sinner”轟動了整個挪威樂壇。很多人喜歡聽Lene Marlin的歌，是因為這個有點神經質、古靈精怪的挪威女孩在她創作的音樂里融入了許多自己對生活的觀察、思考和感悟，這讓許多聽者覺得仿佛歌中唱的就是自己，聽完很有共鳴。她的每張專輯都像是一本用音符寫成的日記。那些青春年少的快樂與煩惱、或明朗或憂郁的善變情緒、愛著某人時隱秘的內心思緒等等，都被Lene Marlin寫進了她的音樂日記里。

“Disguise”這首歌收錄在Lene Marlin于2003年發行的專輯Another Day中，當時已23歲的Lene Marlin顯然成熟了很多，對人生和人性有了更深入的看法和思考。不過，在這首歌中，Lene Marlin的音樂基調仍然是輕盈的，即使歌中談論的是“人生如戲”這樣略顯沉重的話題，她依然選擇用相對輕松的調子唱給聽眾聽。

到底怎樣才能做真實的自己？也許，卸下偽裝并沒有想象中那么困難，我們需要的僅僅是一個值得信賴的聽眾、一次放松身心的旅行或是一股說出內心想法的勇氣。雖然人生好似一個大舞臺，男男女女都是演員，但就算是表演，有時我們也需摘下面具，本色出演。

Have you ever felt some kind of emptiness inside

You will never measure up to those people

You must be strong

Can’t show them that you’re weak

Have you ever told someone something that’s far from the truth

Let them know that you’re okay

Just to make them stop

All the wondering questions they may have

I’m okay

I really am now

Just need some time to figure things out

Not telling lies， I’ll be honest with you

Still we don’t know what’s yet to come

Have you ever seen your face

In a mirror there’s a smile

But inside you’re just a mess

You feel far from good

Need to hide

’Cause they’d never understand

Have you ever had this wish of being somewhere else

To let go of your disguise

All your worries too

And from that moment

Then you see things clear

I’m okay

I really am now

Just need some time to figure things out

Not telling lies， I’ll be honest with you

Still we don’t know what’s yet to come

Are you waiting for the day

When your pain will disappear

When you know that it’s not true

What they say about you

You could not care less about the things surrounding you

Ignoring all the voices from the walls

I’m okay

I really am now

Just need some time to figure things out

Not telling lies， I’ll be honest with you

Still we don’t know what’s yet to come